And now for something a little less serious.........

Have you ever had a real emotional connection with a song? Like you just hear the right song at the right time, in the right setting?

It's only happened to me a handful of times, and I listen to a lot of music. In recent times I can only think of two songs that I've had that happen with: "Gone" by Pearl Jam and "Wake Me Up When September Ends" by Green Day.

Well it happened again tonight.

I was driving home from work, late, after a particularly frustrating evening and frustrating week. Driving down Main Street in Clearfield and Layton the in dark, with the neon signs of run down buildings slipping into my vision like Ghosts from a past that isn't all mine, but is part mine as well, as in "This place is a part of you whether you like it or not." Most of the time I don't like it. I don't like the culture, I don't like the fact that there's nothing to do. It's just not me, but in fact part of it is. I've been up and down these streets for what will be the better part of 31 years next week.

Anyway, as this is all going on in my brain, "Turn the Page" by Bob Seger hits the radio. Now usually I listen to the alternative station, but Mariel had been driving the car yesterday so the radio was on the Classic Rock station.

Now not being a Rock star I'm not gonna pretend that this song is in anyway about me. But the music has always struck a bit of a vibe and then these lyrics hit me tonight:

Well you walk into a restaurant, strung out from the road,
You can feel the eyes upon you as your shaking off the cold
You pretend it doesn't bother you, but you just want to explode.
Most times you cant hear em talk, other times you can.
Oh the same old cliche, as that woman on her a man........

There I go, turn the page.

Everywhere I go I feel the eyes of people on me thinking I'm a bit of a never was, a person who hasn't lived up to potential. It pisses me off. A lot of it's probably in my head, but not all of it, and I have a hard time escaping it. I really want to turn the page, have a life that is new and unique to me and my family (My wonderful wife and puppy at the moment.)

I'd love to turn the page.

Anyway, the song really struck me and connected with me tonight, and as I felt the warm evening air blow the ghosts of the old streets and the old life past my car into the distance, Bob Seger helped me escape it all for five minutes, to turn the page, to be lost in the music.